Went swimming just now.
Im seriously pissed with what had happened just now at the pool.

Just have to say one thing.
My brother is just a barbaric person.
wtf.

everytime, when im having my swimming "lessons", he would somehow disturb us.
He seriously have nothing to do luhs !

today, i was swimming half way and he said that im a pig, swimming.
so, i just showed him that Irritated face.

Jingwen continued telling me brother and say he should not have said me a pig,
is some form of insult or whatever.

My brother turn back, crack his knuckles and clench his fist at Jingwen.
and say : " what ! not happy ah! "

Fgs lahs .
I got so angry and I say
:" hit lahs, if you dare, just go ahead !"

and he aimed me instead.
he did not punch me, but punch into the water.
what a gangster's face and attitude.

the pool was quiet ..
and I shouted back at him in the pool.

:" DONT ACT LIKE A GANGSTER OK !"
freak. he is just simply acting like one .


well, guess what he said to me?

"return me my goggles lah bitch".
Indeed, im holding on to his goggles.

ya, im a bitch .
brother scolding sister a bitch .
perhaps, in this way, you can see that he is just a stupid "boy" wh0m acts like gangster,
AND OBVIOUSLY,

our relationship isnt good at all.

I went over and tell my mum abt his precious son acting like a gangster.
and ?

She did not scold him?
but, talk to me instead.
say that we should not provoke him or whatever.
"we" refers to my cousin and me.
well, i think its just simply referring to me uhs?

Who is the one that provokes me first ?
who is the one who wants to act like one gangster?
who is the one that clenches fist as if like wanted to fight?

its who huhs?!

Fgs lah.
my mum say his temper will not change so easily, so, we must give in to him...
and also avoid all those "provoking-stuffs".

His temper will not change so easily is becos of my mum.
She spoilt that brat.
she spoilt him!
and of cos, if everytime we have a mindset saying that his temper will not change and we must give in, HE WILL DEFINITELY REMAIN LIKE NOW ISNT IT !

thats why im so pissed off.
i get myself out of the pool.
sit on the bench and I just started crying.
its stupid right?
i know. but i could not stop myself.
I took the towel and headed to the toilet first.
I cried so badly.

Its just like, everything its seems to be my fault.
nvm, perhaps, i will used to it.


***
behind the scene *

My mother told me after i went in, he did scold me brother, all sorts of thing lahs.
saying that my brother wasnt angry when he clenches the fist, and he is joking.
fgs, if he is scared of something, he would not have said the truth right.
I told that to mum.

but she said my brother have no point lying or what crap luhs.

she is just pointing at my attitude.
ok, i know my attitude sucks.
but not as sucky as his.

-.-

this is a total of wasting of time.
stop here*