.Saturday, August 16, 2008 ' 9:34:00 PM Y
Im back to blogging .Recently , im busy man ):Have to wake up early in the morning , like around 6 plus, 7 .Then go home late at around 12 plus .By the time we bathe, prepare all our stuffs, its around 1am.waa . Supperrr Tiring =XToday was the last day .We have to send Grandmother for Cremation.around 12pm, we send her off.Before that, we walked around her coffin.As , so call , see her for the last time .The cousins all started crying .for the first few days , they were still so happy , playing about . ( for kids )Now , I see them crying non stop .and i started crying .Tears are flowing ..Just to sad ):Recently, i got very close with one of my primary 2 cousin girl .She is soo cute & pretty .we called her the babe in the family .haha :D
Personal Data Name :Colleen Owyong Yu Ling . ( i guess thats her chinese name )Age : 8 yrs , Primary 2 . who is she? : My cousin , 2nd uncle's smallest daughter . 
a few days ago, we started playing tgt .hahas .Remb that day, she pinched my cheeks .and i started pinching hers .We both are pinching each other's cheeks and not letting go .and we just sing along . ( as in " lalalalala " )hahas .the others around saw us , and started laughing .i guess we are damn sweet to play around like that .hahas (:**Today , i saw her crying .I cry even more .I can see that she is really sad .When my grandmother is still alive, she dote on colleen very much.we cry , when we walked behind the Coffin van .and after that ,went up to the bus and bused all the way to the cremation centre. On the bus, I sat with Colleen . She was weeping , sobbing. I saw her crying . I jus cant stop myself from not crying. I comfort her, ask her not to cry, but end up I cant stop .She was calling for Grandmother. call grandmother while she was crying . My uncle and auntie turned back and look at her.I guess they were also feeling even worst when heard colleen weeping.We are all weeping in the bus .all i can hear is only sobbing . No other conversations. no one spoke.Jus then , colleen turned back . ( her parents were sitting behind us )She spoked : "papa, dun cry". (papa, 不要哭)
She is only primary 2 and she knows how to comfort her dad.** we reached the cremation centre.When they pushed the coffin in the burner?? or cremation room?ya , i guess .all the adults were crying so loudly , and shouting for Grandmother. Same goes to us , the younger ones.that is the last time we can shout for her name.Saddened ):after that, we went down to the waiting room for drinks.Omg , im sad alrdy . and still ask me to drink?but still drink.cos everyone is drinking.i guess its some kind of respect or what ?so i drank.Went back to have our lunch and headed up to grandmother's house.and saw alot of old photos.Super funny .hahas (:Im going to miss the days in grandmother's house.I got close with my cousins nowadays.will miss them after tml.Tml , we will be going to take Grandmother's ashes.After tml , i dun think we will meet often.I will miss all of them.Colleen too !she is sooo cute !How i wish i've got a daughter like her.Oh ya . My mother says, Our family, seems to be "pros in crying" .she meant the younger kids.Normally , adults will cry more than kids.But! we kids, cry more than them !hahs !Maybe , becos we really love her !Reached home and slept.Everyone slept.till almost 7 plus.and went out for dinner. ****I miss my grandmother!I miss cousins!I miss My relatives too !I miss all my girlfriends.And finally ,I miss Boyf.I had not been meeting him for days , due to the funeral thing.He is sick that tues . but he had recovered.Now , its my turn.From morning till now, i had been sobbing.and my nose tap is not switching off.Eyes abit hard to open big.kind of swollen.Cry too much alrdy . T.Tok , thats the end. Im abit tiredd ):
