.Thursday, August 07, 2008 ' 8:55:00 PM Y
I bet, today, is not a good day . Tears, finally rolled down. I just cant stop myself from crying , no matter what .Maybe, crying makes me feel better. It was raining super heavily when I went back home. I was alrdy half drenched while walking to the tamp mrt station, and then, to eastpoint.Called mother, hoped that maybe she could bring down umbrella for me. But , failed. She say she was mopping the floor and had not bathe yet. So, she does not want to come down. She told me to rent an umbrella.I hate it =XI did "wished" to rent, but in the end, there was no more umbrella renting. So, I waited for around half an hour or more at eastpoint, just to wait for the rain to stop, or wadever..The rain did not stop. Im cold ):In the shopping mall, Its cold . Outside, It's worst .I called back home , wished there is someone that can bring down an umbrella.Nope, there wasnt. Mother was still bathing ..Father asked me to wait till my mother come out and see how.I have alrdy waited for half an hour or more. Im seriously cold.Waited for another 10 mins, Mother dint call me.I ran Home.The rain was not jus a DRIZZLE.Its like almost a storm. supposingly, I walked home. I jus cant be bothered . Who cares. Even Family does not CARE .why do I?Reached home , fully drenched. Like "dunno what" . Jus like bathing in the rain . Mother saw me drenched. hey, guess what is her reaction huhs?CARING? "OH DEAR, COME QUICK, GET INSIDE, YOU WILL GET A COLD"???OH.. ITS NOT !"WHY DO YOU HAVE TO BE LIKE THIS? SEEING YOU DRENCHED LIKE THIS, IRRITATES ME!""看你这样子，我很讨厌！"ya , perhaps, that is the only thing she could say . I cant hold my tears anymore. Once again , she spoked.Asked my father :"among those "many phone calls received" , did your son called?"Among those "many phone calls", Its all from me which I called for help for the umbrella.She dont even fking care about me.My brother happens to be also outside, and HE HAS AN UMBRELLA.OK, MIND YOU!
HE HAS UMBRELLA.
AND HIS SISTER , WHICH IS ME ! DO NOT HAVE ONE !ok , Mother just only care whether my brother is safe anot. ( when he has an umbrella???! =.=)I rushed back into my room .What she did was, Knocked on my door ..and say ..:"STOP GIVING ME ATTITUDE, GO AND BATHE !!"ok , wad the FARK .I simply hate it . I went to bathe, and when just nice, brother came back.well, i guess he is not as drenched as me !he has an umbrella and travel by bus to simei near our house. as for me, I dun have an umbrella. and have to travel from tampines bus stop all the way to EASTPOINT!AFTER THAT, WALKED HOME DESPITE THE RAIN!Mother said to him :" Dont on the Fan , or you will get a flu "AH HAH . Ya dont on the fan . FREAK . I just cant stop crying .In the toilet , Cry*No point holding back tears...13 years i guess, 13 years, it has been like that . Biased .Everytime, she looked down on me .Hoping brother is the one that can bring Proud to the Family. Even studies, At first , she thought i would end up in ITE . where she says , simei ITE could be my school .For my Brother , duman sec sch?ya, she hope . But, Not . Normal ACADEMIC IN BEDOK SOUTH .yupp ! thats when she could not say anything?Fine!! To her , Im a completely Failure.Sometimes, i really hope that i dunno anything , about her stupid BIASED ATTITUDE. But, I cant. I dunno what can I do much .Im sick and tired of this, again and again .
